Praying to the great unknown
Feeling confident
but have no reason for it.
i don't have a job
i feel ambivalent at times about where I am
i think I just need to pray for a little humility
to remember to do those practical things that keep life going
that will reinforce me
And my resolve
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I was sitting behind the iconostasis this morning, and I was questioning which direction to go in. The perfect answer I was seeking and I thought about it. I realized all this spinning could just possibly be anxiety over wanting to do the right thing.
I know some questions are answered here. But in awakening to to my own anxieties which have motivated me is making everything seem more manageable
I guess what I can see is that whatever motivation that keeps me taking care and getting myself out the door is what matters. I kind of lose sight of ‘this is my life’ and being my own advocate and promoter at times but I’m getting there. Each day may present a different dance I need to do to get there.
i am on the verge of praying for as much humility as the powers that be can grant me. i am beginning to believe that humility is the greatest gift available. when i am full of myself and sure i have the best plan available, getting out that door is intimidating under the weight of all that certainty with a countering certainty that all the other a-holes out there are as full of themselves as i am.
when i can muster up the humility to pray only for the strength to do what is in front of me, simple participation in a grand scheme beyond my comprehension is plenty. i need only manage my little slice of the cosmic pie.
Thanks Arfie!!