Sometimes I feel naturally motivated sometimes I don’t
Again I'm thinking to challenge certain pitfalls with my thinking.
As in the last journal, I talked about how moments of disconnect can make me feel isolated, solitary, different and helpless.
"But I can turn it all on its head......
rather than feeling the existential and isolating awe of seeming different and disabled and so separating me and making me vulnerable or helpless - I can chock it
all up to what I have in common with others at times and what it's like to be me too - all at once."
Not everyone feels motivated all the time - something which was the case for me tonight!...so I challenged that and concluded sometimes, when you don't feel it, you're not DIFFERENT, you've just got to just put yourself
through the paces - one step at a time- like a lot of us I'm guessing - find that effort for doing things even when it feels like no one else would
have such feelings. The momentum will come! :)
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I sure hear you sweetie...I'm on a fair amount of medication that has a sedating quality and I really have to push myself a lot of the time to get things done...xo
Thanks Janet!
It's not uncommon to waver between "I am separate and defective," and "I am human and connected." I sometimes feel that way regarding my physical health. As someone diagnosed with a rare illness, I'm often faced with people who don't understand, including some in the medical profession. I view it as an opportunity to create human connection. To share what it's like being "different." What I've learned through many of these interactions is that each of us is "different" in some way.
When you experience these dips in motivation, it's not a personal failure. It's something that happens to every one of us. We all have to put ourselves through the paces at times. Action often precedes motivation, rather than the other way around. We sometimes have to begin, before we are ready.
You're doing great, Mark. Hugs.
thanks Judy! xx