scared at times
I think we all can get a little scared sometimes.
When we're faced with life choices, leaps of faith, trust
and considering what kinds of things we want in our lives, new directions.
It's like I look for a path forward but choose an abstraction to hold
onto when not knowing. I hold onto to different
things to guide myself along the way- along the path - a framework - that provide a path.
I'm seeing that in each of us - especially here among
some of a few of us at the monastery that come to mind right now.
Sometimes writing here on the site can seem so vulnerable.
It can seem like we are reaching out to the unknown
and yet I am also butressed in life and for unknowing that I can also hold onto beauty.
Maybe ultimately
I hope I am living life well.
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I really need to clean this place. It's neat but not super clean. I'll clean the bathroom and my floors tomorrow
and throw on a load of wash. I need to do some filing as well.
if I want to know that I am living life well then...
...I've got to start doing a few things around here
that will get me there..
I think the fact that you totally changed your life to move states away and embark on a whole new and completely different life was huge Marky and took so much courage
It's pretty amazing!!
Thanks Janet! I really believe it was a decision that has transformed my life and health!
I agree with Jan. That was a huge change, and you did it!!
The fact that you're contemplating whether you're living life well suggests that you already are.
fear is a hardwired piece of the survival instinct. i often wonder if the limbic system sends out occasional pulses of fear just to test and maintain the system. it gives me visuals of the old world broadcasts with that weird signal and the disclaimer, "this is only a test. if there had been an actual emergency we would have given specific instructions."
We all wonder at times if we are living life well, but anytime one stops and asks the question? The answer is yes. Yes you are living life well and conscientiously.
thanks Judy, Arfie and Nikki!!