false blinding pride begone heh
I know I can't see my misgivings about making
a path forward for my self to be a 'non starter.'
I am not the only who feels insecure or perhaps
too weak in the face of the enormous new path
ahead of me. Some people are indeed talented and
and some self
confident and some have a mixture of both (indeed a blessing!)
but I've got to know that I am ok -
my self is not only found not only by being witness
and loving others without imperfection.
I am going out for a change of scenery.
Years ago I felt incapable of having my own experience
until I finally broke down - and then when I started to explore
my life my attentions went to the opposite extreme.
I was reparenting myself.
I think I have finally found my individual. I am not selfless only
I am not selfish only - I am a mix of the two.
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I hope getting out for a change of scenery lifts your spirits sweetie
Yes I can sure feel insecure at times as well Marky
False pride begone sounds like a good idea...xo
Thanks Janet!
learning good things today. Each group you work with serves up their own brand of crazy. You’re all getting the job done though and we’re all foibled people. (They thank me a lot which doesn’t always sink in but I appreciate it, I’m just kind of in work mode ) Today I saw how logic would dictate to me a certain arrangement but then you have to really be ready and at the whim of others good graces and whims. The group here does good work. You can’t always get what you hope for but it’s clear to me whoever you make life with, at work or privately we’re all working with our own brand of crazy to get the job done.
Thinking there are always nooks and crannies that we can delve into that can end up in a tail spin.
Thinking also, if you ask anyone mid-aged if they know 'what they want' more times than not there will be No Specifics, generalities to find a good life...which is Exactly what you want for yourself!
Thanks Mary Louise!