guys..I"m weird
I have been thinking about things and also thinking about something an old therapist once said to me.
She said that we all have a 'different shape' and so things are different for each of us. I don't know if that makes sense.
But in continuing along those lines I have been thinking about, in my aloneness, that sometimes I just focus on what things mean to me and my sensibility - rather than what they mean in a social context. Sometimes when I am confident I don't always have a sense of the responsible thing to do. I may think what relates to me personally - and I know I have to think in terms of what things mean on a greater, social and personally responsible plain. I know this may sound crazy. I watch the French, Japanese, German and Bristish news almost every night. It's interesting to be informed on so many perspectives and yet it also reaffirms in me - not just the world as I would hope it to be - but also the world in which there's a consensus from so many perspectives.
Anyways, I am alone quite a bit - but I need to make peace with my life and also fight forward for those things that help me pull my own weight.
:)
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Okay, mark. So, you're linear? "Continuing along those line..." your words. Does your watching different news almost every night represent a "parallel universe", aka lines in parallel sequences, to you? I'm 1/4 'kidding you' and 3/4 trying to understand.
If I've missed it, please explain. I honestly am interested in what your therapist and you are saying. Thanks.
it's all ok. I guess I am just trying to stay motivated. I might be linear. Not sure.
Sorry IWBD. I just reread this and it seems really a leap. I guess what I am trying to relate is that sometimes I can be selfish - and I am learning to remind myself to keep responsible. I guess i really didn't need to add that I watch the news. But watching the news is something I really like. It keeps me socially conscious and helps me live with a social conscience. That also makes me not feel alone.
I live in a house with 5 total adults. All relatives except one. I tend to get lonely a lot lately. I try to do things to keep busy when I can. I think it's okay to be selfish sometimes. I guess it just depends on the circumstances. How do you watch all those foreign language news programs? Do you speak the different languages or are they interpreted on the show? Take care, Mark. Hope you have a good weekend.
thanks becky! I woke up this morning feeling kind of sad and vague. I think it's important to be a little selfish too. Feeling confused. You need to be to know what you want..
The foreign news programs are all on PBS. So they're all in English but from their country's perspective. It's really cool I feel like I am in touch with what's going on. :)