jms7229
Status: focusing on my abundance instead of what i lack.
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Last night I started an argument.if I needed to justify myself I could say it came from a place of " enough already". Just one sentence really that set his rage off. And then ...... I went into one...
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Things have gone from bad to worse! Yesterday was a binge day......apparently his therapist told him that an occasional day of drinking ,say , every two weeks or so was not necessarily a bad thing....
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First item on my mind is really the most superficial. Superficial may be an odd word to use but that is how it feels. It is the surety with which i know he is still drinking, and probably will...
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I am beginning to feel an overwhelming sense of despair regarding my husband's status. Not only is the addiction issue clearly only superficially addressed by him ( and I think only to try to trick...
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Alright what the hell is wrong with me? AH is being as close to kind and loving as he has ever been, but still I feel a strong undercurrent of negativity, impatience, and aggression coming from him....
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So we had words this morning when I called home for something and I believed he was clearly drunk. No need to go into this further because it is the same old story and I am tired of the telling, and...
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The time has come to give up all denial and face the reality that my husband is NEVER going to stop drinking. I went through a short period of hope in the last 6-8 weeks or so . I was just fed up...
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first and foremost i am GRATEFUL that the damage we incurred was minimal in comparison to many others. we lost several trees and had no power for 7 days. two 80 foot tall oak trees fell onto the roof...
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well, well, well..... the day to day of this detached surrender is hard when done uber correctly!!! last weekend we had another "discussion" because AH is not sticking to the two requests i have:...
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i came home from work last thursday to find my husband drunkenly "sleeping". Now , this is nothing new.... i am well aware that that the drinking and/or pill taking has never stopped for any...
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alright i told the story of our fight on saturday night in the last journal entry, and also added the following behaviors where he felt firmly established as alpha dog since i apologized. he then...
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saturday night we went to a family dinner at a Hamptons hot spot. My niece is a server there and was able to get us a reservation waterfront on a holiday weekend. my parents, my sister and her...
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my last journal entry was titled one day at a time.... well this is a bad day!!!! the whole bullshitty situation is under my skin this afternoon. as per his usual track record of about 2-3 weeks...
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Alright, i just (might) have to take back some of the crappy sh*t i have been thinking/saying about my husband. This attempt at treatment seems to be his most committed. I remain detached, yet very...
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i have been pushed past my limits. clearly stated agreed to boundaries have been violated and now i am placing the also clearly understood (i thought ) consequences into place. i am using the two...
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