Ellocin

I tried to post an entry last night but for some reason it wouldn't let me.  I had a busy day yesterday after my appointment.  Mom picked me up and we ran a bunch of errands, did some Christmas...

ughhh...sick of this stupid cold.  It kept me up most of the night again...at least this time I didn't end up cutting.  I just had a meeting with my rehab specialist who is working on my disability...

Can't sleep because I'm coughing too much...so doing a lot of pointless web surfing.  According to http://www.chriswetherell.com/elf/ my elf name is Nienna Sáralondë.  See, told ya it's...

Feeling okay again...well mood wise anyway.  I sound horrible though with this cold...I got nothing done at all today.  My appetite is back though sorta...once I start eating I don't want to...

ughhh...still feell like crap, the cold is moving into my lungs  and my head is still plugged upcut up my arm pretty bad last night but think its okay...didn't bother getting it checked...no...

I'm sick of being sick...sick with a cold, sick in the head, sick of my moods, sick of being sick in every which way, just sick...I don't want to deal with it all anymore...I just want to sleep and...

Doing okay again.  Boy oh boy am I ever up and down lately.  I don't know if it's worse to be continuously depressed or to be up and down and all over the place.  I hope this isn't a sign my meds...

Well I got some more Christmas cards done and have been listening to Christmas music all day.  It's okay....not nearly so helpful as it was a week or so again.  I think my roommate is mad at me...

Okay I couldn't go to my appointment today.  My cold is nasty and it kept me up most of the night.  It's starting to move into my lungs.  It's gross.  So I cancelled my appointment with my...

I just got home not too long ago.  I went to a play at my sisters church and it was fantastic.  They put on such high quality plays and they're almost always free admission so it was nice to get...

Okay I"m officially sick.  I've got a cold starting and it probably explains why I have been feeling like crap the last few days and been sleeping so much.  I was awake most of the night because I...

i'm trying to snap myself out of this but all i'm doing is pulling away more...i don't want to do anything...not even write here.  i slept most of the day so now it is after 1am and i am awake.  i...

i'm surprised i'm actually feeling relatively okay...i took some pills that weren't mine but still within a safe range...i researched them first...they should start making me sleepy soon...if not i...

why do people say one thing and do another...i sent a message to one of my friends before i went to sleep (but after i was cutting) and she left me a message back saying we could get together...

i'm doing okay at the moment...just eating my brunch.  i cut last worse then usual so i am dissappointed with myself about that.  My arm hurts now but i guess i deserve it...afterall it was...