i'm trying to snap myself out of this but all i'm doing is pulling away more...i don't want to do anything...not even write here.  i slept most of the day so now it is after 1am and i am awake.  i should grab something to eat...i never had supper but i'm not really hungry.  I woke up with a bad sore throat and my nose is stuffed up so I think I am getting sick too.  Wonderful.  I'm trying to be happy about Christmas...I was happy and excited less then a week ago, I don't know what happened.  I don't know what else to write so I'm ending this for now.