ughhh...sick of this stupid cold.  It kept me up most of the night again...at least this time I didn't end up cutting.  I just had a meeting with my rehab specialist who is working on my disability stuff.  She just informed me that they haven't even been working on trying to get me back to work and they won't until the new year.  No wonder its taking so freaking long.  She also said that according to my psychiatrist I'm not ready to return to work.  I think I'd be doing better if I was working because it would keep me out of the house more and give me an opportunity to get my finances figured out.  I can't live on this disability income very well.  Anyway...that's that.  At least it's one less thing to think about over the holidays.  I don't have to worry about them calling tomorrow and saying they need me to start working right away.  That's the news here.  I'm going out for a bit even though I feel like crap.  I just need to get outta the house for a bit.