alijoezack

yeah i know its not end of world. just feels like hell. she loves me as a person but not in love with me. ive known this for months but still hard to deal with. she finally said it. but she keeps me...

guess it was overdue but doesnt make it hurt any less. we had  a really fun night but she wasnt feeling well as usual so she didnt stay. she started off today asking if i have issues with her seeing...

spent whole day on couch. went out last night after working a 15 hour day to a new club for lesbians. i was told by a woman that was running the place that i look im going through a really bad break...

trying to slow head down and just enjoy. been all over the place with emotions. cry at the drop of a hat. i love my gf and am so happy when i am with her but why do i keep loosing it when im not with...

i just flipped at work and feel like hell/ i run my own store for a large company and it was like a 3 ring circus and i ended up fliiping and crying and basically walked out. im very laid back but...

she is choosing the family over me which she said she will always do. she said sorry if you are hurt it is what it is. she is mad at me said she is not being mistreated by her family. they are...

ok finally stood up for myself. why does it now feel like hell. of course i sent my ten texts after that appologizing sort of. for 5 months have tried to quietly deal with not being allowed over gf...

woke up damn sad and shouldnt be have beautiful kids since tuesday and they are going back to dads today. i really love it when they are with me even though dont always act it. my girls relatives are...

i just wish i could be secure with my relationship. i cant be myself i cant relax i cant love her like i want to . maybe i should say screw it and be the person that i want to be even though i know...

my sister seems think im too sensitive so should i be like her and date people that drink like a fish and beat me. why cant i just role with things and not get stressed at the drop of a dime. glad im...

i feel like im freaking mentally challenged. and i hope noone takes offense. i feel like my brain doesnt work right. and that i should be perfectly happy the way things are and that i jjust start...

um feel alot better than i have but i still panic when havent heard from her. we are both so ocd and text same time every night when doesnt happen i get nervous. still scared she gonna distance...

i feel better just trying to go with things and see what happens. i was at a really crazy place in my head when i thought everything was falling apart and lost controp of my feelings and emotions. i...

had long long talk yesterday via text of course. she wants to come back realizes she said alot of nasty hurtful things. she misses me and the kids. just needed break because she was overwhelmed and...

i caved after she told me shes so sad and misses me and the kids so much. asked her to come over this morning and visit for little bit before i leave for weekend cause havent seen her in over a week....