deep breaths

very very long hard day. she sent me some very honest emails and they hurt like hell. the truth sucdks but guess was needed. i hate this feeling. 4 months big deal. i dont have the energy to do this again. im good today cause i have my beautiful babies. and tomorrow i will work by butt into the ground at work. need to get back into work and focus. had a beautiful store and have let it go to hell a bit. im tired im sad feel like a failure feel pathetic. feel like incapable of being with a woman. it was my first real one. dont want pity just want to know how to remove my head. i feel like stupid ass. that big deal suck it up and move on. why do i have to be like this. need to stop kicking myself in the ass.