alijoezack

its amazing how much better i feel when i can actually slow my head down and use my brain. im getting better at speaking my mind when it comes to all things. i still have alot of bad days but have...

my ex tells me its because the moon is in mercury. idk what that means all i know is i am a hot mess. i need to stay single yet i keep going from one crazy one to another its like i enjoy the abuse....

yup again so apparently i suck. im an embarrassment to my child and making her life hell because i choose to shave my head. and i wear jeans and tshirt. and to a football game i work sweatpants and a...

i guess i just feel like kicking myself in the ass today. i keep doing the same things and somehow think magically life will change. hmmm not likely anytime soon. im not stupid but sure can act it...

i guess i just feel like kicking myself in the ass today. i keep doing the same things and somehow think magically life will change. hmmm not likely anytime soon. im not stupid but sure can act it...

are there others that in order to cope just shut others out. is this a survival tool. others say im being cruel. but when im done im done. i am stronger than before. i know this. i can wrap my head...

im just wiped out. i have so much knowledge and kick myself when i dont do the right thing. i get knocked down emotionally. wish i wasnt so sensitive. it was good and yes i miss it but parts were so...

having a really rough time. so down.thought ending it with her would make me feel better. nope. she blames it all on me she did no wrong. i dont need her to put any of the blame on herself. im just...

i told her about this site and she went on and read it all and even posted about me like i wouldnt know who she was talking about. why do i feel betrayed. my councelor said its my fault but this site...

yup lost and confused. i miss them so much feel like someone died. finding myself hard. im very numb. afraid to get attached to anything

my boys came home for the night. it is so awesome to just have them home and hear them talk and be with each other. i think it hurt me more not having them with each other than not with me. the twin...

im so sensitive and my moods go off of others. i miss kinddyke badly. she is hurting badly and has blocked me out to cope with life. and i miss her. she was my saving grace these last few years my...

having a really hard time with the boys being away at school. one barely talks to me and the other one does sometimes. asked if could visit one this weekend and he said no. they are so introverted...

i am beyond sad my twins left for college. well one did the other leaves sunday. feel like i lost my whole world. 

so i met a couple nice people at a local meetup group. met up with them the other night and one of them was such an ass i spent whole night sobbing like an idiot when i got home. withing 2 minutes of...