depression
having a really rough time. so down.thought ending it with her would make me feel better. nope. she blames it all on me she did no wrong. i dont need her to put any of the blame on herself. im just so sad. i cant talk to her. its too emotional. i feel weak. like i failed. i told her straight up i bailed cause her kids are verbally abusive to her and she thinks thats bullshit. she said i was controlling. why cant i be normal and not sad and not thinking of things i shouldnt. old habits are hard to break. the ex coming by work today didnt help. i miss my sons horrible. wanted to cut.
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Hmm. They sell cigarettes that kill us,.. yet we buy them. I decided not to buy them and it\'s really, really hard. My X is promoting her marriage all over the internet; pretty much fucking me and the 12 years we were together; there\'s a part of me that would love to retaliate. My younger bipolar sister is pulling the wool over my elderly Dad\'s eyes and manipulating her lover; and I would love to jump in and tell them both to stand back.
However... in all these situations.. I AM THE BOSS. I AM what I AM ...for ME. I make my choices and how I\'m going to progress in my life. And sister,..this is what you\'ve been shown and warned about for a long, long time. Life is about YOU. Not a sorry, sad, pitiful, victim you.... An accountable woman who is learning how to TRY to move forward with Self love and self Awareness.
Ugh. It\'s hard.. I know that. But there is no other way to find peace and happiness Sister (hug)
thanks ms teri congrats on the quitting i quit 3 years ago and it was far from easy