thankful

are there others that in order to cope just shut others out. is this a survival tool. others say im being cruel. but when im done im done. i am stronger than before. i know this. i can wrap my head around things alot better than before some days are just overwhelming. i knew from the start it was wrong but yes once again i tried fell off and will try it again later than sooner. thinking before i jump in. im a boss at my store and responsible for all me and kids and some days i just want a break. i wanna sit back and relax and not stress. i know im a kind sensitive soul just wish i could go with my gut all the time cause usually its right. i hate hate hate hurting other people it knocks me on my ass. but they too will survive.