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spent whole day on couch. went out last night after working a 15 hour day to a new club for lesbians. i was told by a woman that was running the place that i look im going through a really bad break up. i was like damn why do you say that. she said i need change the look on my face. i was little hurt. i guess not really good with people approaching me but want to make friends cause lonely. havent seen girl much. although day off she overslept so i didnt get to see her. went to club with a friend but not interested in relationship with her shes not my type. got too drunk. drove home so spent day kicking myself in the ass cause i dont believe in driving even at 3 in the morning. want to feel better but know doing the same thing day after day will change nothing. just hurts