im the bad guy

she is choosing the family over me which she said she will always do. she said sorry if you are hurt it is what it is. she is mad at me said she is not being mistreated by her family. they are leaving the country in six months so she little lost. she is coming over this morning and im nervous wreck. she said cant stand when she get out work all stressed out and gets my crazy texts. so i said ill stop sending them but sorry if she works when my feelings come up//  so when is a good time to send the fn things. im not supposed to care that im not allowed at her house.. really dont care but to say she is closing the pool when her parents leave in couple weeks when coulda been time for me and kids to come over is not gonna fly with me. we dont talk and need to cause i  cant keep loosing it yes i know i overreacted to her not coming over this monday. oh and cant call her on phone after work cause that is her unwind time. so i just lay there awake when i get up early waiting for her to get out of work and hour and half drive home to tell me she got home from work why cause im a stupid idiot...................................................................................