Journal

My mood after having hours long anxiety attacks is very soured and my outlook on life and the world goes downhill. That's how I feel right now. I suddenly felt flooded with so many art ideas thag I was absolutely bursting from my seat, couldn't keep eating dinner, couldn't do homework, just wanted to draw draw draw. Filled with anxiety about if I could utilize this sudden motivation, about if my skills were enough, the future of my art etc etc. Couldn't get a good feel for the drawing, tried talking to friends, listening to music, playing online games with strangers, felt frantic frantic frantic. And lonely, and insecure.