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Well the doctors appointment went pretty good today. I kinda got a little upset at first because my doctor told me their might not be a heart beat because I'm not very far along, or that there'd be...

It's been six months today since my little angel went to heaven.  I miss him so much. My doctors appointment is tomorrow.. Thank god... I've been feeling like crap here lately I've had a cold and I...

I'm feeling kinda down today... Missing Nickolus a lot. I'm about to go to his grave and make him a new flower arrangement to set out on his headstone. I've been reading some of the new members...

Well everyone, I know it's been a while since I've been active on here. Since I quit my last job at the office I was working I couldn't really get on here much because my home internet was still on...

Well guys... remember how I talked about Michael saying that I probably went out with some other guy the night I left him and had sex with him? Turns out thats his guilty conscience barking up his...

In 13 days, one hour and 18 minutes... Nickolus would've been exactly one year. I don't know how I'm going to be able to get through this. In 6 days it'll be 4 months since my little angel has been...

I know I haven't been on here much lately. A lot of things have been going on with work and my personal life. Things got really crazy there for me about 2 or 3 weeks ago. I was doing a lot of stupid...

Well I had a really bad break down this past weekend. Last Sunday, the 20th was Nickolus's 3 month mark since he passed. It all just kinda hit me at once. I was really missing his father Michael...

Well... my plan worked. I got absolutely trashed yesterday. I'm kind of upset now though. I never went to see my son's grave, I didn't light a candle for him... I just wallowed in my misery... got...

Well... we all know what's coming up. I don't know how I'm going to cope with Sunday. I truely just don't want to deal with it. I keep telling myself I'm going to just go get so miserably drunk and...

I am truely and deeply hating life right now. I want my son back so badly it just can't be real that he was taken from me. I don't know how to begin to get over this hump. My life is so meaningless...

What a long exhausting weekend... I went to my friend Alisha's house on Saturday. BIG MISTAKE. She's pregnant and about as big as a house... I miss that so much. Our friend Brandy was there... she...

Well another week has gone by... Another week without my little peanut. I miss him so much. Just when I think my mood is starting to get a little better I have another day like this where all I want...

I still miss my little man with every breath I take... but the zoloft is truely making things easier. The pain is still there, don't get me wrong it's just not as gut wrenching as it was before. I...

Well I've been on the zoloft for a week now... I haven't personally really noticed anything other than I don't cry as much anymore. I don't know if I like that or not though. I think it's healthy to...