I am truely and deeply hating life right now. I want my son back so badly it just can't be real that he was taken from me. I don't know how to begin to get over this hump. My life is so meaningless now I don't understand how I can even begin to start being happy again. I wish I could take back the hands of time and change everything about the day my little peanut left... I'm so angry I want to destroy myself. I don't know what to do I just want to curl up into a fetal position and die...
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Hey sweetie... I know there are a lot of us that understand how you feel. It has been two-and-a-half years and I can remember that same feeling like it was yesterday. I don\'t think that anyone can tell you how to begin to move on with your life. I think that for a long time I was in denial, I tried really hard not to think about Isaiah because everytime I did I would cry. Nothing that anyone says will help, I learned that too, all I can say is hang in there. It will never be completly better, but somehow you will be able to go on. I am here if you need me, I am still tring to learn how to deal with the grief myself, but I would love to talk to you if you need someone. Hang in there, we are all here for you!!
not a day goes by that i don\'t wish jakobe was here with us. you will never get over the death of your baby, but one day, you will be able to move on. it\'s a long and hard process. you have to be strong. i\'ve been mad at myself too, but i have to realize that god does everything for a reason. he does not put more on us that we can bear (it may not seem that way). i\'m here too if you need to talk. we\'ll get through this together.
I want to let you know that you are not alone in this. I just joined this community yesterday because I felt so alone and crazy. I can\'t tell you that you will feel better soon or that it will get easier because it hasn\'t for me. It has been almost 9 months since my Savannah passed away and I still lose my mind every day. She was my only baby and now I feel so empty and lonely. I miss her every second of every day. I know how you feel when you say you wish you could just crawl up and die. I can offer you this though, what keeps me going somedays is knowing that if I do hurt myself I wont be able to see her again. So I stay, as hard as it is, I stay and I talk to her everyday and promise her I will see her again. If you need to talk to me I\'m here too.
It will get better I promise! Just take 1 second at a time and just keep on keepin on.... time will heal your broken heart :)