I know I haven't been on here much lately. A lot of things have been going on with work and my personal life. Things got really crazy there for me about 2 or 3 weeks ago. I was doing a lot of stupid things trying to ease the pain of losing my sweet Nickolus. But... me and Michael are back together again. We've been living together successfully for a full week now... Which is a really big thing because we couldn't 2 days without fighting and screaming and me losing it and throwing things across the room and telling him to get out. My cycle is finally normal... I had a normal period last month that came in 28 days after my one before that, it's been 2 weeks maybe a little more and I haven't started another one. And... Saturday I bought the ovulation tests by Clear Blue that have the smiley face test results (so much easier to determine) and yesterday I got a smiley face :) So I'm ovulating, and hopefully in 2 weeks I won't start my period and I'll be having another child. So everyone please keep your fingers crossed. If you're a christian please pray for me. I also want everyone to know that I'm seeking replacement for my little peanut. I could never replace that sweet angel. But I am looking to feel that love and comfort of another child. The hole in my heart will always be there for Nickolus and I know that. But I want to have my heart filled with some kind of joy to place next to that hole. I hope everyone else is doing well....
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I can totally understand that desire to have another little one. A book I read refered to subsequent children as not a \"replacement child\" but a \"healing child\"....I liked that.
I just want you to know I am behind you 100%, but if you do for some reason not become pregnant, don\'t get too stressed. Even under normal circumstances a woman in a given cycle only has a 25% chance of becoming pregnant. Glad to have you back and God bless.
My daughter Bonnie was born 26/6/2006. She was with us for 2 and half months. She also died of SIDS. Just wanted to say good luck in having a new baby. I too would love for this to happen to me. We\'ll cross fingers together hey.
When you do have your new baby, then you will have your answer \"why\"
Amen to what Leosmommy said. My daughter Mia saved my life! I like you,your drinking, went on a drinking and valium month, well 3months. So yes another baby will save your life.