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Horrible anxiety and sadness today.  If I didnt have my kids I would probably just take my bottle of sleeping pills and be done with this whole fricking mess; im that sad and sick to my stomach.Im...

Had a good nights sleep, I feel much better today. Well much better than yesterday, so its all relative. I emailed my stbx and told her im not going over there tonight.  She was going to have me...

Made it through the day somehow. She told me she was cooking her boyfriend dinner tonight and watching a movie.  She said if it got too late he would sleep on the couch (yeah right, my God does she...

This may be my low point.  I have never felt worse. I didnt sleep a wink last night.  All i keep thinking about is tonight is the night I have the kids and since Valentines day is on Thursday, my...

So now we come to the bottom line.Can I get over the fact she is with this guy, immidietely after our seperation, or is it something I just wont be able to get over?  Im not talking about...

Well that didnt go so well. I was supposed to go on a road trip to see friends tonight, but instead the wife wanted to talk to me about any issues I might still have about the break up.  So I...

Cried myself to sleep last night. Dont feel any better today. Feel like I will/could cry again at any moment. I feel like such a baby. I am supposed to be out looking for a job, and doing PT for...

Weekend sucked.  Well it was good and bad.   Friday night was fun, I went out with my family and left the boys at the cabin (it was late they just went to bed), and had a good time shooting pool...

Im in a size 38 jean today!!! Yay!! First time ive worn that size in years!  There is something good to be had from being sick to your stomach with sadness and anxiety!  Thanks stbx! Well last...

Had my first good nights sleep in a long time last night.  Slept next to Collin and I only woke up once the whole night, and  I was able to fall right back asleep. Its amazing how much a good...

Well couldnt sleep again last night. I thought my original post at 2am would help me get things off my chest and allow me to sleep. It didnt.If I dont get a good nights rest soon I may die.  I am so...

The hits just keep on coming.  So I go one day without talking to the stbx. I decide its best for me not to talk to her. What does she do? She get an attorney.   I just cant believe how this is...

Made it through the day without talking to the stbx.   Actually wasnt that hard. Of course being so pissed off at her doesnt make it tough right now.     She must have called me or txt messaged...

Well it didnt even last a week.  This whole friend thing. The whole her and I working through this together thing.She saw him again last night.  What a lying bitch.  How pathetic and weak.  How...

2.5 years post divorce.  I t rarely think bad thoughts, and the ex and I get along really well.  I think a lot of the anger she had for me is gone now. She speaks to me with a lot more affection....