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Cried myself to sleep last night. Dont feel any better today. Feel like I will/could cry again at any moment. I feel like such a baby. I am supposed to be out looking for a job, and doing PT for...

Weekend sucked.  Well it was good and bad.   Friday night was fun, I went out with my family and left the boys at the cabin (it was late they just went to bed), and had a good time shooting pool...

Im in a size 38 jean today!!! Yay!! First time ive worn that size in years!  There is something good to be had from being sick to your stomach with sadness and anxiety!  Thanks stbx! Well last...

Had my first good nights sleep in a long time last night.  Slept next to Collin and I only woke up once the whole night, and  I was able to fall right back asleep. Its amazing how much a good...

Well couldnt sleep again last night. I thought my original post at 2am would help me get things off my chest and allow me to sleep. It didnt.If I dont get a good nights rest soon I may die.  I am so...

The hits just keep on coming.  So I go one day without talking to the stbx. I decide its best for me not to talk to her. What does she do? She get an attorney.   I just cant believe how this is...

Made it through the day without talking to the stbx.   Actually wasnt that hard. Of course being so pissed off at her doesnt make it tough right now.     She must have called me or txt messaged...

Well it didnt even last a week.  This whole friend thing. The whole her and I working through this together thing.She saw him again last night.  What a lying bitch.  How pathetic and weak.  How...

      Well I guess I made up my mind. At least for now.  I didnt talk to my stbx all day, though she called several times, and I didnt email her except a very impersonal email asking her my...

I am feeling stronger today. Why? Because im angry.   Maybe God has blessed me with catching her with that guy.  I certainly feel like I was steered there that night.  I mean I even knew in my...

Spent the night at Carries.  Seems to have been a big mistake as i am suffering greatly today.  Could be fatigue as I slept maybe an hour.  I just cant sleep nexst to her as a friend, it just dont...

Caught Carrie with her boyfriend last night.  Boy I guess when people here tell you to believe your gut instinct they are so very right.She told me to have the kids call her early so she could go to...

Very very very sad today. Hard to breathe again. Feels just like the day after Carrie told me it was over.Tomorrow I move out of our house.  My dream is dead.  The great wife and kids, the nice...

Monday Carrie asked me for a separation. I am devastated. Have tried everything to get her to change her mind but it doesn't matter. She has so much anger towards me. She tells me she still loves me,...

Starting Depakote today. First time on a Bi-Polar drug. Always been treated on regular anti-depressants (with little lasting effect).A bit aprehensive about all the possible side effects.