pattongb

4 months post divorce, almost 1 full year post seperation, and today was the worst day since the initial breakup. Just knowing she was at her family's, with her new man, and the kids, and for...

Wow its been a long time! So much has happened. I quit my GM job and moved to Green Bay. At the time I thought I was doing the right thing, now im not so sure.  I miss my old job, I miss the girl I...

Havent been around much. Things are going great. I have lost 70 pounds and am almost at the goal weight i set for myself 5 years ago and just never got to.  Well divorce seems to have been the diet...

Well things are going ok.   Im a bit down today, but it was an emotional weekend. I basically broke up with all 3 of my girl "friends".    Becky I just like her too much as a person to keep...

Feeling alright today still.   Im a bit nervous about my new job starting tomorrow.  I have 3 months to prove to them that I can handle the GM job.  Its going to be a lot of pressure.  But I...

I actually got offered the General Manager position at Emma Krumbees!  Not the kitchen manager, the entire operation!! Wow.  Im a bit overwhelmed.  Its a lot of responsibility and work, but this...

Well I have a job interview tomorrow.  Kitchen Manager at a nice restaurant down the road.  Its not the pay, hours, or days I want, but if things dont come up soon I may have to take it (assuming...

Feeling fine today.  A bit tired yet from the weekend, but otherwise pretty good.    Saturday I went out with Austin to wish him farewell. I wont see him for at least 3 weeks as he is going to...

Feeling good today, even though I have to spend 3-4 hours with the stbx tonight for my sons bday. Im not looking forward to it.  But it does give me a chance to show off the new me to her.  Let her...

Im feeling stronger every day.   I still have very sad times, but the anxiety is almost completely gone now.I laugh more now and I have a great time with my kids.  I also find I dont talk about...

Felt good yesterday, man did I feel ok.  Played catch with my youngest and made a couple great meals for my boys; I love cooking for them.  Today started out rough as I dreamt of Carrie all night,...

Yesterday was miserable for me. I felt terrible all day. Almost suicidal.  Today the sun is shining, and its the warm spring sun. I slept well and I feel much better.  I think the more days that...

Ive been busy all day sending out resumes and looking at my schooling options. I also have a growing ball of anxiety rising up inside me.  My stbx is going out of town with her boyfriend.  I...

Becky didnt email me at all yesterday, and today she emailed me and said she would call, and she didnt.   I should be upset about it, but truthfully im not.  I guess im better suited to deal with...

Drank again last night.  Bah! I have to get this monkey off my back. All it does is make me feel like crap.  My depression is always 10x worst the next day (today).   I almost went over to the...