Had my first good nights sleep in a long time last night.  Slept next to Collin and I only woke up once the whole night, and  I was able to fall right back asleep. Its amazing how much a good nights sleep helps you feel stronger.  I have to meet Carrie tonight to decide if I need a lawyer to fight her with her new demands; it must be God's will that I will finally be well rested when we meet. How ironic the first "confirmed" night of her spending with her boyfriend I got my best night of sleep in some time.  Maybe it was all just too much for my mind and body to take in and it was finally ok with just shutting down. Im done letting her rob me of my dignity and honor. Yesterday was the telling moment in all of this mess.  She basically answered all of the questions I had by her actions:  YES she was having an affair before all this started. YES she has a boyfriend. YES she is selfish and lacks dignity and compassion. Now I just have to survive her onslaught in the court system.  I will probably get screwed. But I will fight anyways, and some day she can live with the regret, while I push forward, head high and shoulders back.