Well that didnt go so well. I was supposed to go on a road trip to see friends tonight, but instead the wife wanted to talk to me about any issues I might still have about the break up.  So I agreed to go over and be with her and talk to her. Basically it was all a huge mistake.  The more we talked the angrier I got and the more I started to look at her and hate her.  She is so smug now. She thinks she is so smart and in charge of everything. She really has gotten so self invovled that she is incapable of seeing anything but her own feelings.   I basically told her I didnt like her, she wasnt a good person anymore, and that I want nothing to do with her besides what involves the kids.  Then I left mad. Of course the horrible part is she probably isnt going to lose a wink of sleep tonight, and I feel like a complete train wreck.   I couldnt be anymore depressed.  I mean I would have NEVER thought Carrie and I were going to end 10 years of our relationship like this.   Never in a million years did I think we would end up hating each other. She made that choice when she decided to be with him.  She could have waited 4 stinking months till the divorce was final and I would have gotten over her dating.  I wouldnt have liked it, but I would have gotten over it.  But no she has to be with him.  So its on her as far as im concerned.  Well now I am all alone when I dont have the kids. I am stuck in this town with no friends and noone to talk to.