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Im feeling stronger every day.   I still have very sad times, but the anxiety is almost completely gone now.I laugh more now and I have a great time with my kids.  I also find I dont talk about...

Felt good yesterday, man did I feel ok.  Played catch with my youngest and made a couple great meals for my boys; I love cooking for them.  Today started out rough as I dreamt of Carrie all night,...

Yesterday was miserable for me. I felt terrible all day. Almost suicidal.  Today the sun is shining, and its the warm spring sun. I slept well and I feel much better.  I think the more days that...

Ive been busy all day sending out resumes and looking at my schooling options. I also have a growing ball of anxiety rising up inside me.  My stbx is going out of town with her boyfriend.  I...

Becky didnt email me at all yesterday, and today she emailed me and said she would call, and she didnt.   I should be upset about it, but truthfully im not.  I guess im better suited to deal with...

Drank again last night.  Bah! I have to get this monkey off my back. All it does is make me feel like crap.  My depression is always 10x worst the next day (today).   I almost went over to the...

Well it was an ok weekend.  I went in boughts of feeling good and having fun with family and friends, to boughts of being really sad and thinking too much about my stbx.   I drank both friday and...

What a crappy day. I slept like crap last night so I was major tired this morning.  Then the stbx picked me up to go to the Bankruptcy lawyers office.  She was being all nice to me and frankly I...

Where did you go my Love?What fork in the road, led you away?How did I not notice you had leftthat you had strayed?Where did you go my Love?And who is this in your place?Who is this stranger, with...

Things just dont go my way anymore.  I did a good job of avoiding the stbx all week last week, and I had a good weekend, despite her repeated attempts to talk to me. Then on monday morning she txts...

Had a great weekend with the boys.  We had a lot of fun.  Was great being in Green Bay all weekend with my family and my friends.  There are so many here who love me for who I am and who like...

This shit is the first thing I think of when I wake up, and the last thing I think about when I go to sleep.Man that sucks so bad.  Im so damn tired.  There is an overwhelming sense of sadness and...

Told Carrie about the possiblity of me moving.  I didnt want to fricking tell her till I had her face to face, but she told me if I didnt tell her what was on my mind that she was going to be pissed...

Me and the stbx are fighting today.  Man shit just keeps on rolling downhill.  I had to give her back $300 of my security blanket (tax money) because she owed the state $600 from when she was in...

Still very sad and high anxiety today.   I have so much I need to do, as far as making important phone calls and applying for jobs, but I have no energy to do them, and I want to hide in my...