Another Battle

2.5 years post divorce.  I t rarely think bad thoughts, and the ex and I get along really well.  I think a lot of the anger she had for me is gone now. She speaks to me with a lot more affection.  Its great to see her happy.    
Id say once every couple of months or so I get really sad for what ive lost, and I cry for a bit, and then I fall asleep, wake up in the morning, and move forward.
Today though starts a new battle.   Sobriety.   
Im ready.  I will never be more ready than I am today.  I want to, no I HAVE TO, stop drinking.  My life depends on it.
I am at an apex.  I have an opportunity right now to set my life on a great path for the next 30 years of my life.   This is the pivotal moment.  Or if I continue to drink, I can go down a path that will lead to an early death.  That early death is within sight now, so close it scares the crap out of me.
Mentally I am different.  My brain is regressing and is in an almost constant state of fogginess.   My throat and my esophagus are always hurting.   My body always tired.
The alcohol is killing me one drink at a time.   
Im ready to stop. I will stop.  Today is day 1.  In an hour it will be day 2.   One day at a time.
I know I can do this.  I know I can..i know i can..i know i can.



One day at a time is the way to go - hang in there you can and will do it!