The hits just keep on coming.  So I go one day without talking to the stbx. I decide its best for me not to talk to her. What does she do? She get an attorney.   I just cant believe how this is all turning out. She actually borrowed the money from her boyfriend!  My God!  What the hell.  So now what I have to borrow the money from my Mom to pay for mine?  How fricking nice for her to have her boyfriend to borrow her money for her divorce!  The whole thing makes me sick to my stomach.She says I dont have to get a lawyer. She says I can meet with her lawyer and if I agree to certain things, I can just sign the paperwork.  Wow, I dont even know what to say.  Basically she wants to change the following about our current agreement:   1 - She gets primary custody of our youngest.   2 - She gets primary placement of our youngest.  3 - I get stuck with 50% of the debt.  4- I agree to never drink when I have the kids. 5 - She doesnt have to pay me any allimony.I cant believe she would actually try to take any of my time away that I have with my son.  What purpose does that serve?  She is such a spitefull, useless human being.   I want to hate her so bad. I want to tell her what I think about her.  I want to make her as miserable as possible.   But I realize now that I cant win.  She is the Mom. She makes all the money. She has the boyfriend.   I have nothing.   Im gonna talk to a lawyer tomorrow or thursday.  Maybe I can fight back yet. Its more likely he/she is gonna tell me im screwed either way and I should just play ball.  I wish I could just eat a decent meal and sleep through the night.  Im so tired.