Well couldnt sleep again last night. I thought my original post at 2am would help me get things off my chest and allow me to sleep. It didnt.If I dont get a good nights rest soon I may die.  I am so tired I cant even breathe right.  My mind is a constant fog.  God I am so so so tired.   I usually lay in bed thinking of everything going on, a knot in my belly.  At some point I luck out and my mind drifts to thoughts of something totally unrelated and I then fall asleep.  Usually a few hours at the most later I wake up thinking of everything again.  Then its impossible to fall back asleep for hours at a time.   Usually just before dawn I sleep for maybe another hour.  The pattern is killing me.I suppose actually working during the day would help me tire out.  So getting a job is of utmost importance right now. Well that and im broke broke broke and cant trust her to help me; especially now that she has this lawyer and is feeling all tough and mighty towards me.  Hard to send out resumes and go to job interviews when you are so tired, so sad, and so emotionally spent.   I have to find strength somewhere to pick myself up.Sometimes I really do feel like my heart is just going to explode and I will die.