nikkole

In todays meditation I thought of belle, digital belle, and hollier than thou belle (5th - 6th grade) - the three of them were closer than usual, even though belle stays hiden in the snail.  I...

I saw an episode of Daily show where trevor Noah interviewed Tomi Lahren.  Tomi - the new face of hate.  disguised in long blond hair and a black cocktail dress.  NO longer are figures of hate low...

Todays meditation was mellow.   I sat on the back deck - warm in my boots and coat.  I thought of my inner children and I thought just a bit about thanksgiving and the presence of the mother. I...

An old high school friend, lets call her leslie, someone who I once considered a best friend, posted something on facebook that indirectly insulted those of us who are upset about the election...

Following the election I did not use the tools I've been taught to use when coping.  I did not come to this website and express my thoughts and feelings.  I couldn't medidate.  My fear very...

I couldn't sleep for several days following the election.  I decided if I couldn't sleep by the end of the week, i'd ask a dr. for help.  I started meditating again for the first time 2 days ago....

When I’m blended - the feeling is a wash of guilt and shame and this encompassing dark feeling that they are going to find out how incredibly bad I am - and when they know what i've done, they...

TRIGGER WARNING!!In today's meditation I pictured the dad with little belle.  He slowly morphed from a good looking man into a thing with a bald head that seemed to balloon, while the rest of his...

I met with an uncle today who is very much into geneology.  He reminded me of my families heritage; that they are from a region in Europe that not only suffered thru WWII, but also a famine, and a...

From this mornings meditation practice: I ask digital belle (a projection of the real belle - a 10 year old inner child)  if she would go away if I was no longer fearful.  She said she would...

In today's meditation practice I felt  the usual steady stream of anxiety that sweeps through me.  Its strength acting as a framework bolstering my body up as though my bones are made firm by...

Just got back from a wonderful trip to san francisco.  Some strange things have happened on this trip but it was nice to be away for a few days.  A few weeks ago, while meditating, My younger...

It started when I was working from home on Wednesday and settled into a deep meditation during my lunch break.  I felt my legs and arms tingle - is this fear? They say that abused children can...

I had an interesting convseration with a cousin.  She is joining a free web-course on happiness offered by Berkley.  She talked about not being sure if she wanted to be vulnerable around...

I’m behind at work.  I have to write a quality plan and we have this crazy auditor who wants things done a very specific way. Unlike other auditors, he does not simply check to see if we are...