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- I know I have a flurry of posts lately, but I need to get this shit out. Maybe someone else will benefit. ?I am struggling big time. It is hard to ask for "help" because I should/do know how this works. I just need to vent.First off... yes my...
- Question.I have heard people talk about getting a little squirrelly when they are coming up on milestones.Has this been true for you?In my earlier attempts at sobriety, I would come up on 30, 60, 90 days and it bothered me to get recognized because...
- My mom sent me an email last night asking me to share some memories of my dad because a local historian wants to do a writeup. I feel like I don't have very many memories at all. He died 14 years ago when I was 22 and I was a mess for a long time...
- When someone is asked why they relapsed, they invariably say "I stopped going to meetings." I think that is just the convenient answer. Meetings did not get me sober and will not keep me sober. Period. As far as I am aware, AA never mentions such...
- I am just shy of 11 mos sober. I think I am actually feeling alive for the first time in a LONG time.A year ago, all I did was go to work, come home, drink or obsess about drinking, and lay in bed. I was paralyzed. I did not eat right or sleep or...
- UGH!I feel like I am getting bombarded with triggers today. I will not get in the car, drive to the liquor store, or purchase booze to pour down my throat. I know that. I truly believe I won't live through another relapse and that scares me. I...
- In case you wanna know... Just thought I'd share with you all that I finished it. Glad it's over.xo
- There are people here that changed the course of my life. That is pretty freakin powerful.More than a handful of you have been angels in my journey over the last couple years. I have thanked God for YOU specifically, numerous times. I think you...
- (God is in quotes because it is only the term I use for lack of a better one. My higher power concept is pretty vague and I don't really have much of a description for it.)I don't really like prayer in the traditional sense. I don't like asking...
- Hard to ask this.I am almost 9 mos sober. I have been stuck for the past 4 mos not being able to force myself to move forward in the steps. I have been up and down, depressed some days, intense anxiety other days, and some days feel good. I am...
- I didn't get to share in my meeting today. The topic was the JOYS of sobriety, specifically aimed at the old timers who have been through all the ups and downs.Got me thinking. I am still in that place where it is bliss to do the things every...
- I am struggling big time. I am fully aware OF this stubborn resistance in me but I cannot seem to let it go. I am sure it is fear based. Why the fuck does it feel like I am up against a brick wall. I won't DO anything about it! Wtf can I not...
- A few years ago, I said to anyone who asked... "If I can't have a family of my own, what is the point in getting sober?" I did not care to live if I couldn't have a baby. Long story short, I was infertile and could not accept it.Last few days have...
- I have 8 mos sober. Lately I have been feeling restrained. I am uncomfortable NOT being angry. I am feeling powerless but also irrelevant. I feel as though my passion is gone. I feel as though I can't speak out when I am upset by something. I...
- I have a friend I care for lots. I have kept my distance because I didn't trust myself to be around an active alcoholic and drug addict. I feel pretty stable now and want to help her if I can.Problem is that I think she is fucked up all the time...