So overwhelmed..

These emotions.. They are so overwhleming.. I find it hard to get out of bed or stay awake, but nearly impossible to sleep.. Even my melatonin only gets me a little sleep, even very large amounts.. Normally it would knock me out pretty quickly and last a while.. Now it makes me extremely tired, dizzy if i take too much, and it makes me fall asleep very quickly.. But then i still wake up after 3-4hrs and can't sleep much after that... I just want to get some decent sleep.. I want to not feel so drained.. My emotions are becoming too much.. I feel everything and nothing all at once.. I feel like I cant breathe... Everything hurts.. I feel empty, but I also feel like I am about to explode... It's too much for my brain to process.. I can't think. speak, sleep, breathe or anything....  It's scary how close to sucide I am.. Just don't want to feel like this anymore...