Keeping my chin up!

A lot has been going on.. Been having panic attacks often, feeling really depressed.. But I'm not giving up... A lot of bad stuff has been happening.. But, some good stuff has too! I had a conversation with a guy about how shitty he makes me feel sometimes and how he's made it kind of difficult to trust him the way I used to.. He apologized, and we talked, and he seemed to genuinely care and feel bad about what happened. It was a nice conversation and I'm hopeful.. I'm trying to lose weight..  So I'm trying to eat a li better, do a lil more. I'm going to cedan my bedroom and starting working out. Once we have the money, I plan on keeping stuff around for healthy smoothies to have instead of junk food and sweets. Going to start drinking more water and green tea. Hoping to get myself healthier.. Wanna feel better about myself!  I have my goals, and I'm going to work toward it. : ) I've been thinking about cutting again.. But, I'm staying strong and I'm resisting with everything I have. I'm trying so hard. Things are slowly coming together and I am more determined than ever! I'm NOT going to let this, ruin me.. I'm NOT going to give up... I'm stronger than my depression.. I refuse to let it control my life anymore..