SeekingKnowledge

Well...another day is done. Lots has crossed my mind. It's amazing the worldwind that blows within. So many different feelings...overwhelming at times. I feel like I'm opening up too many cans of...

I've been sitting here absorbing what has transpired today on DS and discovering a bit about me. My eyes have welled up a few times thinking about the discovery of myself. It makes me feel happy,...

Well, I fought for something I believed in. I don't mean to sound conceded at all by the statement I'm about to make, but - I'm in awe with myself!Never in a million years did I ever think I was...

Ok first of all I just want to say that my day started out absolutely horrible. Actually Saturday is when it all started, and yet for the first time since I've been on here I have an excellent...

Ok....I'm pissed!!!! My stbx owes me 60 bucks in arrearages for child support and owes me for this week too. I'm being very fair to him. I could be getting alot more from him, but am tryingto be...

Well, it's been a couple days since I wrote anything in my journal. Just dealing with the "drama" of life. For those of you that know me, you know what I'm talking about.The last time I wrote a...

I can't get the song "Amen I'm Alive" by Nickelback out of my head. I don't know why. I do love the meaning of the song. The video is great. Fight for what you believe in...so true...yet so...

It shouldn't be so hard to make a decision, should it? I mean either you want to see me or you don't. I can't accept fear as a reason. I dont know what the hell he's thinking or what his thoughts...

Dear D.I doubt I will ever send this, but I need to voice what I'm feeling. It hurts so much that you're so low, and I can't do anything to help you through this. I feel myself spiraling downwards....

Am I living in a fantasy world?!?!? I mean honestly, can this ever work out? Not only do we have distance, but we both have depression. I hate looking that the glass half empty, but I'm just so...

Well, I just spoke to D. I'm really worried about him. He is so low right now. I feel so helpless. I wish I could be there for him. He's so alone. Thank God Rusty is with him. He's saved his...

I just want to say that I'm feeling so much better than I did 2 weeks ago. I'm not saying I'm "there" yet, far from it, but the fact that I'm off the Prozac and not having such dark dark thoughts is...

Well I got my commission check today...Yahoo! MUCH NEEDED! I have no business wanting to go to Florida. I feel guilty not getting away with my kids, but I need to recharge my batteries. Long...

I feel so torn inside. All I want to do is see D. I need to get away for along weekend. All I want to do is spend it with him. Go somewhere just the 2 of us. He's so low, he dodges the question. I...

Well Day 2 on Pamelor. I feel about the same, ALOT better than on the Prozac. Tired, but I guess that's to be expected. Only thing that's bothering me is I feel like I"m always hungry and I'm...