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I'm scared - I feel myself spiraling yet I feel I can't do anything to stop it. Gawd, I feel like such a fuck up. I'm really not liking myself right now - because I feel so weak inside. I know...

InsecuritiesWhy must we have them? I hate them. I really do. I try so hard to take the chance - yet my mind is telling me to revert back to my shell - it's a much safer place.I feel so stupid for...

Here Comes the SunI look outside and see something so foreign to me - It's almost blinding. The sun is actually shining - a new day. It's amazing how seeing the sun can change your mood in an...

Confusion and FearI sit here at my desk trying to put into words where I'm at. And I'm struggling to do so. So many thoughts race through my head. I feel like I'm in a whirlwind. The last couple...

Ok - I'm going to warn you that as I write this journal I am indulging in a couple of glasses of wine - so I might bounce around - and change topics - but what I'm going to write is just thoughts...

Uncle SamI love you! LOL Seriously, I've stressed myself out since February 1st about my taxes - putting off gathering paperwork, etc. Facing it was so overwhelming - and I waited until I couldn't...

HappinessWhy is it that we have a hard time allowing ourselves to be happy. And when we notice it "creeping in", we try and push it away. You get that overwhelming feeling of "must not get to...

Well, I have to say I accomplished alot of "crap" today. I have all my paperwork submitted for my taxes. I went through alot of paperwork - did alot of shredding today. Cleared off piles of...

Ok - I'm forcing myself to do what I need to do. I dread it!!! I hate facing stuff - in this case taxes and getting my car inspected - I cringe having to do it. I use to be pretty motivated once...

Sometimes I think I'm better off just staying inside my own world than letting others in. It scares me getting too close to people. I don't want them to get caught up in my tangled web that I have....

Today is another ho hum day - Spoke with my friend Scott - he said I sounded MUCH better than I have in a while. He's been worried about me - last few times I've spoken with him I"ve been a mess. ...

Well, it's Monday night. Don't have much to write really. I worked the last couple of days - waitressing, and today back to work-work. Weather's been cold - not helping much. I need Spring - and...

Hello! This is going to be an abbreviated entry - as I'm limited on time today. I just want to say a quick thing or two. We all offer so much support for one another on this site. We offer words...

Feeling a little fuzzy this morning. Stayed up way past my bedtime - but it's ok - it was worth it.Kids are home today due to the Easter holiday...Oooh I mean "Spring Holiday". It bothers me a...

I just want to say that it's funny how people can come into your life out of nowhere. I truly believe that the people you meet in your life you meet for a reason. Some drift in and out to maybe...