I can't get the song "Amen I'm Alive" by Nickelback out of my head. I don't know why. I do love the meaning of the song. The video is great. Fight for what you believe in...so true...yet so helpless/hopeless too.
I guess I need to believe in myself. Have faith in myself. Not feel like a bad person. I just feel so alone. I don\'t know who I\'m suppose to be. I just feel like I\'ve let everyone down. Like I\'m some middle aged mom going through a midlife crisis. It\'s so much more than that. I need to heal from yesterday in order to move forward into tomorrow. Somehow I need to let go of the passed, and accept the choices/decisions I\'ve made to make me become who I am today. Such a hodgepodge. Don\'t have the faintest idea on how to go about figuring out who i am.
C\'mon Knowledge you don\'t want to be numb. Take that from someone who is there. I care about that people around me, but if they dissappear tomorrow I probably won\'t care til about 5 years from now. If we could let go of anything, I don\'t think many of us would be on this site. I just know that letting go is part of my problem too; I don\'t know how to, or if I want to. I figure if I let go of all the pain I have, what will I have left. I hope today was a lot better for you than yesterday. Have a good nite, my friend
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I guess I need to believe in myself. Have faith in myself. Not feel like a bad person. I just feel so alone. I don\'t know who I\'m suppose to be. I just feel like I\'ve let everyone down. Like I\'m some middle aged mom going through a midlife crisis. It\'s so much more than that. I need to heal from yesterday in order to move forward into tomorrow. Somehow I need to let go of the passed, and accept the choices/decisions I\'ve made to make me become who I am today. Such a hodgepodge. Don\'t have the faintest idea on how to go about figuring out who i am.
God, I feel like I create such drama within me....but is it really drama or feelings? Maybe if I were numb it would be better?
C\'mon Knowledge you don\'t want to be numb. Take that from someone who is there. I care about that people around me, but if they dissappear tomorrow I probably won\'t care til about 5 years from now. If we could let go of anything, I don\'t think many of us would be on this site. I just know that letting go is part of my problem too; I don\'t know how to, or if I want to. I figure if I let go of all the pain I have, what will I have left. I hope today was a lot better for you than yesterday. Have a good nite, my friend
Dont crush your emotions....they wont be there for the good stff either darlin\'....there is good stuff to come!
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