Dear D.

I doubt I will ever send this, but I need to voice what I'm feeling. It hurts so much that you're so low, and I can't do anything to help you through this. I feel myself spiraling downwards. I feel down because of how you feel. I hate that. I hate that I can't be strong. I feel so sad and lonely myself, and wish you were capable/able to comfort me. How can you though? I don't know what to do. I just wish we could go back to last fall, when all was so different. I miss you. I miss that spirit I knew back then. Why did you let me fall in love with you knowing what you knew? Why didn'tyou share with me? I'm so emotionally attached, and involved. I love you with all my heart. Yet, I feel so overwhelmed with what's going on with you, it's effecting me. I can't get you out of my mind and what you're feeling/struggling with. I could never walk away from you. I'm committed to you, but I feel like what you're going through is overwhelming me. I feel helpless, and Iget down because I can't help you. I feel like a failure to you. I have my things I'm dealing with that bring me down. I feel so much guilt. I can't away from you, I love you, but I can't feel the way I'm feeling. I feel like I'm trying to carry some of your burden, and I can't do that. It's not healthy for me, yet I can't stop it either. Why? Because I love yiou and I care for you so much. I'd give anything to go back to last fall. How things were with us. I never felt more beautiful and happy in my life. And that was because of you. Now, I feel like awful, so down. I wish I could help you through the darkness. I want you back D. Please find a way, let me help you. I love you, and always will. I can't give up on you, I won't. I have to find a way to create balance. It's just that I feed off what your're feeling. I can't help it. I care for you and love you.