Gambling Addiction & Recovery Support Group
Compulsive gambling is an urge or addiction to gamble despite harmful negative consequences or a desire to stop. A preferred term among many professionals is problem gambling, as few people described by the term experience true compulsions in the clinical sense of the word. Problem gambling often is defined by whether harm is experienced by the gambler or others rather...
116 days in recovery. This morning, on my way to work, I was sitting on the freeway, and found myself starting to cry. Every morning, on my way to my office, I talk with God. I know, its strange, but I do. And I found myself so overwhelmingly grateful, Up until a few months ago, I had gambled, for 10 years, really, although I thought I had been living my life, I realized I wasn't living my life, I was walking through the motions of doing life, but not doing it well.
I don't miss the gambling, I don't miss the person I was, I am enjoying this new person. Today my sister came by my office to surprise me, I looked up from my desk, in a meeting and oI utside my door stood my twin. She proceeded to tell me how pretty I was, I mean she wouldn't stop, its like she was seeing me for the first time, in a long time. I was taken back by that, because she is my identical twin. :) But when I was gambling, I didn't take care of myself, no sleep for days, worry about money when I wasn't gambling, and no eating, took a toll on my physically, lets not even talk about emotionally, So now, maybe she is seeing me for the first time in a very long time.
I am an addict, in recovery, and I will be one day at a time, for the rest of my life, God willing. When leave a meeting, we say "pray for the addict that still suffers." I pray for the addict that suffers and I pray for the family and friends that suffer as well, this addiction is pure hell, it touches o many lives, not just me as an addict, but, my mother, my sister, my daughter, my co-workers, the stranger at the store that I snapped at because I was in a bad mood, etc. etc. etc.
So, tonight I pray for the addict that still suffers and the people this addiction has touched.
Good night my warriors. xoxox
I don't miss the gambling, I don't miss the person I was, I am enjoying this new person. Today my sister came by my office to surprise me, I looked up from my desk, in a meeting and oI utside my door stood my twin. She proceeded to tell me how pretty I was, I mean she wouldn't stop, its like she was seeing me for the first time, in a long time. I was taken back by that, because she is my identical twin. :) But when I was gambling, I didn't take care of myself, no sleep for days, worry about money when I wasn't gambling, and no eating, took a toll on my physically, lets not even talk about emotionally, So now, maybe she is seeing me for the first time in a very long time.
I am an addict, in recovery, and I will be one day at a time, for the rest of my life, God willing. When leave a meeting, we say "pray for the addict that still suffers." I pray for the addict that suffers and I pray for the family and friends that suffer as well, this addiction is pure hell, it touches o many lives, not just me as an addict, but, my mother, my sister, my daughter, my co-workers, the stranger at the store that I snapped at because I was in a bad mood, etc. etc. etc.
So, tonight I pray for the addict that still suffers and the people this addiction has touched.
Good night my warriors. xoxox
i sold the house, i bought a smaller one, thank you jesus i didnt destroy my credit, i bought a cute 3 bed/1 bath, i sold a 4 bed/3 bath, alot less maintenance but little room, like a said before it wipes out my debt completely. lucky me? or scared me? i realize i am an addict ...not a gambler, a gambler cares about result.. i have not cared about alot in the last 10 years, very selfish, this journey did have some positive messages though, sure taught me to grow up and cherish life....not money
thanks leap have a g f day!!
Itsjustme,,,, wow, good job on the sale of your home and the purchase of another one, talk about stress. But, with that said, keep on keeping on with your recovery, having no debt, is good, but can be bad if you let the addiction tell you otherwise, keep on with your recovery, you are doing so well.
#1. A radio station was talking about the movie airplane, a new movie has many similar sayings as the old movie. What did I think of? A slot machine. Then I started thinking about all of them that I played that were themed from movies and shows. Those are hard to forget and they were fun. I hate that they used those themes. They ruined it for me
2. My husband left for a fishing trip this weekend. I dropped him off tonight. In the past I always gambled when he went fishing. Always! I thought I would be fine but on the way back I started thinking about it. It was an out of control thought running through my head. Then I remembered I still have my road blocks in place. My ATM is set for a limit of 20 so I can't get cash. I had my husband leave his ATM card for our savings acct at the credit union just in case I needed to put money in our checking for an emergency. I cut mine up a long time ago. But I put the card on his dresser, not in my purse. So.. I was safe! I couldn't go even if I wanted to and I'm home now. I called my Dad and made plans to go see him this weekend. I'll leave right after work tomorrow. I need to pass the casino's but with my road blocks in place I will be able to keep myself safe and G.F.! I know can beat this but it really scared me. I did not expect to get urges at all. It's been a long while and I have been doing so good. I will keep my guards up!