vader
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- I have been struggling trying to adjust to certain deaths and trying to rebuild my life.But I want everyone to know that a friend of mine died suddenly and i am overwhelmed by it all.I knew him for 2 years.He was a gentle soul.,but like Brad he had...
- My father died on November 1st,1987.Dad was 71 years old and in a lot of pain.My father died one month after my 40th birthday and my father whose death I still mourn died in my arms.His last words to me were"I am dying" and then he fell forward on...
- On May 22nd,2013 it was 4 years that Brad died in my arms.On May 22nd,2013 I took down the shrines and gave all of clothes.I have mourned Brad for 4 years.I have been crying for 4 years...Now,Daily Strength...I am proud to say that my mourning is...
- This column was hard for me to write.There are tears in my eyes as of now.But I had a very bad disease when I lost Brad and it is never talked about.I was buying things that I did not need.And i have got so much stuff now that I am giving it away to...
- On May 2nd,2013...I graduate from the cashiering class at Goodwill.It was a rough 6 weeks but being a cashier today is different and I am trying to look for a job.And I am trying not to cry in the mornings like I always do.I try to be cheerful.But...
- I was accepted in the Goodwill Training Program in Seattle and I am going to train to be a cashier.Goodwill has stores mostly in Seattle and they train and hire people after they train.The doctor told me that i can return to work but it can only be...
- I am a recovering shopa holic.That may sound strange for everyone to know but there is a depression that goes with grief,.I have expereinced this for almost 3 and half years.That is I was buying articles that I do not need.My older brother Stanley...
- I want to tell everyone the joyful news.My niece is getting married and I am going to the wedding.This will be my first public appearace since the death of Brad and I have been busy buying all of the necessary things.I have got a new dress.It is...
- Losing Brad was one of the big traumas of my life.It was a horrible day.I will never forget it and I will never forget the people who came to me.This shows how wonderful some of the people in seattle are.Friends are hard to come by.But now...it...
- On May 22nd,it will be 4 years that Brad has died and I am just getting our of my grief.It was rough and I had certain people in seattle who had stuck with me and they told me it would take time.I am going to let Brad go.I am going to buy 2...
- My name is vader and I am 65 years old.On May 22nd,2009 my boyfriend of 12 years committed suicide and it was quite a gruesome sight.Brad died in my arms and it has been been for me literally hell on earth buy now a miracle has happened and it is...
- Holidays were always special to me.As a little girl,I looked forward to the days where there was no school and no homework. I loved the holidays.But now things are so different.I face the holidays with dread.They are one with money problems and...
- I am working at a bell ringer for the Salvation Army.It is a hard job and at the present time I am kind of depressed.You see this is the time of year that I miss Brad the most and people just dont seem to understand.It will be 4 years in May and I...
- Tomorrow is November 4th.It is Sunday and it will be a day of infamy for me.For on this day it will be 25 years that I buried my father.My father died on November 1st,1987.He died 1 month after my 40 th birthday.He checked himself out of the...
- On November 1st,2012...it will be 25 years that I lost my father.My father was 71 when he passed away in 1987 and he was in very sickly health.Do you know that today i cried and i wept just like a baby.To the person in my grief group who remarked to...