I want to tell everyone the joyful news.My niece is getting married and I am going to the wedding.This will be my first public appearace since the death of Brad and I have been busy buying all of the necessary things.I have got a new dress.It is purple and I got purple shoes and pearl necklace.I got a pant suit for the shower and it is black and the pants are black also.I cannot embarass the bride and look like a idiot.I have been wearing black for almost 4 years.I have been doing certain things to try to make new friends.But at 65...it is hard to make friends and monday is a very sad day for me because it is Brads birthday and he would have been 53 years old.Today i cried all day and i thought of my niece and i think of the wedding and the inviite.My niece is a very nice person and I did
promise her that soon I will come out of mour ing and I think that her wedding is the perfect time and I feel good about it.Weddings are new beginnings and this is my new time and time to start anew like I promised my brother who has been my main support for then past 4 years and things are getting good now and now it is time for me to blosoom like the tv show.Thanks to all.vader.Weddings always make me cry.