Ashley8888
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- Well, here I go again, being a chronic relapser....I can no longer justify my actions....It is what I have done for the past year and a half (almost)...How do I break this cycle? I know that I have to "Just do it" but I dont feel strong enough...I...
- What am I grateful for today? I have not thought about that in a few days....I have been a little self absorbed... I am grateful for this and all of you that are here...I dont get on that much but it really helps to just read the other posts...
- So, I was talking to this guy on myspace (just got me thinking) that used to coach my niece. He is divorced, but thats not the point...He was trying to figure me out and sked why I did not have kids, or was I just focusing on my career...He was...
- I feel like my life is like that movie, where the same day keeps repeating itself over and over...I have been trying to get sober, seriously for about a year now...I have made some improvements but it still feels the same...I feel like my life is...
- Being sober is lonely for me, when I was drinking I wanted to be around people more..now, I feel like I seldom have the desire....I just want to be at home, doing my thing...I dont know...I dont have many sober friends either....I am going to AA,...
- Well, all day today, I was off and on here...no I was not angry...so be it if everyone wants to argue, none of my business, I can not control them...I can only control me and what I take in....maybe i am selfish, I dont know...BUT NOW, I just walked...
- Todays meeting was about, giving it over to God, or your HP....one lady got up and spoke, and I nearly lost it crying....She was talking about no feeling worthy of gods love and how we tend to feel so low when we first get sober, that we have done...
- Thank you all SOOOOO much for all of your support...it really does help...knowing that I am not completely alone...that you all are here to support me...yep, I feel all warm and fuzzy inside...well, a little hungover but I am good...So, what...
- So, I went to another meeting tonight and it was in my old neighborhood...the whole neighborhoods is just so cliquie, like they are still trying to be the cool highland kids.....There where lots there just court papers...it was in their...
- I am sober now, so hook a brother up." This guy from the meeting I went to yesterday....he was a funny guy but very honest too. I related to this a lot. It not so much about other hooking me up, but expecting things from God. I know this is not the...
- I went to a meeting today! :) I feel sooooo good too. It was even better than I could of hoped for, this meeting. It was only a few blocks away and it was a very diverse group...It amazed me that I could still relate so much to everything that was...
- I am so frustrated right now....with myself mainly....I just feel angry.... I want to be better already....like now....I feel like I had so much anger in me today....I attempted two different times to go to a meeting and backed out both times...what...
- Today was a hard day for me....I had a shitty day at work, but was semi happy when I got out of there...It was such a beautiful day out, sunny and warm....and all I could think about was getting some beer...I wanted to so bad...my mind was telling...
- Hi, I was very shocked and please to find this site....Marfan seems so rare to hear about....I love that there is a site here....Anyways, I personally do not have Marfan but several members of my step family (that I have been with since birth)...
- I was taking a nice hot bubble bath tonight with candles and everything, well, it smalled really good and I wasn't sure if it was the bubbles or the candles, so, I tried to small THE BUBBLES...lol...what was I thinking...I guess I wasn't...not so...