Ashley8888
Status: Living one day at a time! :)
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- I am learning that it is not always some white light, or God talking to you...But it can be anything that brings you closer to your higher power or that give you the feeling of a higher power working in your life...Okay so I really dont know LOLI...
- The last few days have been really hard for me, I have wanted to drink a lot!! I keep =finding ways not too but even tonight sitting in a meeting I was thinking about it!!!! That usually doesnt happen!!I was just sitting there thinking, "yeah and...
- I heard someone in a meeting tonight talk about feeling much younger than they actually were...and I have heard befor that you are mentally the age that you started drinking heavily at...This makes sense to me, because well I do feel I am a lot more...
- The things I am learning in recovery are soo simple but so amazing too....Not sure when it happened but I am really starting to be grateful for all the blessings in my life and they are becoming my happiness...I am starting to learn to look at the...
- I am feeling pretty bad right now...and just trying to figure out how to sort this out in my mind...I got sober about 3 month ago...my then boyfriend had a lot to do with that, he was an inspiration...He stopped taking pain pills and dove head first...
- SO, I posted earlier in the week about my sponsor not having time to meet with me to go over the steps....We go to a few meetings together a week and I have joined her home group...I have come to really love the women...Well, she has continued to...
- I have a sponsor now and we are working the steps but it is going SLOW!! She doesnt seem to have the time for me...each time we meet its very short and we can only go over a few questions...I am still on step ONE and I know that I have faced two and...
- The one thing I can not seem to get about AA is that they call alcoholism a "disease"... I do not understand that...Cancer is a disease, a doctor can detect it and prescribe drugs and treatment to hopfully cure you!!! I believe the things that AA...
- I came here about 3 years ago, and I was pretty anti-AA...had a lot of questions, concerns and didn really understand....looking back I am not sure if it was more just trying to understand....My addictive voice was telling me all kinds of crazy...
- So, I am coming up on 30 days sober :) yay, lol....but my problem is I am not that INTO meeting right now, I go to a few a week but not the 90 in 90....My boyfriend has just started NA and sometimes I feel like I am jealouse of how fast he has...
- I feel so alone! I feel so empty!!! There is this huge void in me and I dont knw how to fix myself or make myself feel better....I feel numb!! I can be sitting next to my boyfriend, I feel alone still!!! I dont know how to deal with it anymore...I...
- Well, its been two weeks....I feel pretty good and going to a meeting here in a little bit the first in a long time....I feel a little stupid for always coming and going but I know I have to push my pride away and just get on with really trying and...
- I kind of feel silly being back a again and still with yet another recent sober date...It has actually taking me a few days of comimg here and reading befor I could post anything..and mostly that is why I come here, just to read and look for...
- I went to a morning meeting today...one I had gone to befor and always liked. It is an OD meeting and the people who stand up and speak always seem so inspirational...I am thinking after today that there are a lot of court ordered people who...
- SO, I trying to get into out patient treatment this week...I made two different appts. for evealuations...One was at a really good hospital and that worried me because I know ins. can still turn you down. I went through the whole evaluation process...