I don't know why but Monday's seem to be not so good. But, I have made my mind up to go and talk to someone today to see if it will help. John and I had dinner with Josh's girlfriend Friday night. She acted like she didn't know what to say to us to start with. On the way home she started talking about Josh. She has not been to visit him yet and she said she was not ready. I told her to take her time that her heart would let her know. I had a break down after we dropped her off. Sunday Josh's best friend, Jordan, came by. He had told us that he had got into trouble for skipping school. He has a bad life @ home with his dad and he is keeping his feelings for Josh bottled up. So he is supposed to start talking to his couselnor @ school. It's like I told John, Josh's death does not only affect us, but everybody that loved him. I wish I could take everyone's pain away. I worry about everyone else more than myself. Keep my family, Josh's friends and Logan in your prayers.