Well John and I made it through Valentine's Day. It was tough. But, it's like I told him we have many more holidays to come that we will not have our Josh. Last night we went to the funeral home to visit a friend's of John whose mother passed. I didn't want to go, but I didn't want John to go alone. (Same funeral home where Josh was.) I made through the line, but then I had to go out. I could not handle it. We left and went to visit Josh. We have a solar light at him so we can visit at night. I had a bad break down. I am wondering if we will ever be the same again. I know we won't. John brought me lunch at work today. He was talking about how quite it was at home. Home is like the loneliest place I know without Josh. I have got to go to school on the 28th to pick up his class ring. I dread that badly. All his class mates will be there and then they have a party. One that Josh will not attend. Keep us in your prayers. I love you Josh. Rhonda