I got back from lunch and I am angry. I looked all around me and saw how beautiful everything is that is blooming. I could actually see God's work. Then I thought about my Josh. How cruel God could be? I know everyone say there is a purpose. Well, I am ready to know what that purpose was of taking my only child. I have no one to help color eggs this weekend. First family hunt without him. He should be on spring break next week with all of his friends. Not laying in that cold grave. Sorry, sometimes I get so mad. Josh, I love you.
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Yesterday, I was cleaning the kitchen counters...and I looked out the window and saw that the tulips in my yard had bloomed. Next thing I knew, I had gone outside and kicked all the blooms off my tulips! About 10 minutes later, my neighbor called to see if I was ok. When she asked me that, I said \"Yeah, I\'m ok, why?\" And she wisely said \"Oh, no reason...just wanted to see how you are\". Sean made me a \"stepping stone\" that lives amongst the flowers under my kitchen window. I love it and hate that the flowers are in bloom, all around it. Crazy, huh? I\'m a selfish person, I want my son back, period!!!I feel like screaming the \"F\" word from a mountain top! It\'s ok to be angry...just wanted you to know. ~Jill
Josh and Sean\'s mothers, as a grandmother my pain is great; I was so close to Branden. But my daughter is crushed, spiritully, mentally, and physically. She tries to be strong for the rest of us but falls apart when she is alone. Her 14 year old daughter is giving her a very bad time, drinking, smoking, calling her bad names and cutting school.
Easter was always a family time and it is broken.
I hope this note makes sense.
We both want him back and out of that grave!!
I put a couple of his pictures on my page today.
I.too.would like to know Gods purpose in taking my perfectly healthy,happy,handsome 24 yr old son and seriously injuring my yngr son.It stinks.ITS cruel.Its inhumane/ITS unfair.