How do I get through another day without Josh? I miss him so much. Saturday was his 3 months. I wanted to take him new spring flowers out to the grave, but I had to spend the day with my brother in Chapel Hill Hospital. My weekend turned out nothing like I had planned it. I wanted to go and sit with Josh, but I cannot be in two place at one time. I have never been so lonely in my life. When Josh died a part of my life ended. I cannot imagne what my life will be like without him. Josh, I loved you with all of my heart. I know there were times you didn't think so and I am so sorry for that. But Josh, you were my life. If I had a chance to do it over again. I hope you had no idea what was going on the day of your accident. It keeps playing in my mind, even though I have no idea what happened. Josh, your friends and family is going to adopt the road where you left us and save the earth for you by keeping it clean. I know saving the earth was a big thing to you. Josh, it is like I am awake and breathing but there is a emptiness in me that will never be full again. I love you my Joshie Pooh!!!!