Today is a bad one. I got up OK but then the tears hit me like a ton of bricks. It almost made me sick. I made it to work but I had to leave. I just felt like I needed to be close to Josh today. I stopped and talked to my dear friend, left her and went had lunch with my 90 granny. I went had bought Easter Lillies to put out for Josh. John and I will go this afternoon to put them out. I went by the scene of the accident and screamed out into the woods. I am home now burning an incense for Josh and I am going to try to work on my photo album of him today. Just keep me in your prayers. I love Josh and miss you so much.