Well the mother's day weekend has started out the way I thought it would. It is 7:15am am I am a wreck. I have already been in Josh's room had the worst cry I have had in a while. I am burning incense all over the house in his memory. My Josh, I am no good without you. What purpose in life do I have now that you are gone? I don't care about any purpose I want you back with me. I am sorry Josh this had to happen to you. Everyone tells me I can't blame myself, but it is so hard. If I had of listened to you about you not wanting your license. But I know in my heart how happy you were that last month here on earth. Josh, I just can't see how I am going to make it this weekend. I am here now by myself. Your daddy has gone to have a tire changed. Josh he loves you too. He misses so much. He has not had a hair cut since before you went to heaven. I think it has something to do with your death. You remember the other day I went out and visited you and showed you my new ride. Your daddy and I have decided on a personal tag for it "Josh & US". We have one of your decals on the window. One more then I got to get busy cleaning up. I don't know if I have told you but all of your friends and family have adopted your road. Me and your daddy went and picked up the supplies. Your daddy doesn't want to have a clean up day until they put your signs up. Well I see if getting busy helps me. I love you Josh, Mama
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I am trying not to think of Mothers day today. Mothers day is tomorrow. Just remember you are a Mother of a beautiful boy that has given you 16 years of happiness as well as challenges. See, it is easier when these words come from someone else. I am still waiting for an answer why our children were taken so soon. Only God has those answers. I know Josh is surrounding you know with love and wants you to enjoy today. Here in Massachusetts, it is a beautiful sunny day about 75 degrees. Today, I have a positive attitude not sure if it will flow through till tomorrow. Prayers of comfort on this trying weekend. Warrens mom (Sharlene)
I feel your pain too. I have been down all week!! with mothers day and my son\'s third month being in heaven, it is all just to much. I will be praying for you and for all of us moms all weekend we just have to get through it, I don\'t know how but we must. Much love and prayers Melissa
i am right there with you. i believe this week has just been an enormous pain in the ass for everyone. we will get thru this weekend. honey, we\'ve all ready faced the worst that could happen to us, this should be a piece of cake, right? probably not, but we will all get thru it. love you, charlayne
I laid in bed last night and cried like I would never stop-all I could say to Chris was that all I could ever do was just love him-no matter what he did or any problems we were having, I just loved him-he knew that so much when he was alive-I know that from what all his friends say-he understood how much we loved him-but I think he understands in a far clearer way now-all of our kids do-they truly truly \"get it\" now-in a way I don\'t think any of us can understand when we are still here-we just love them!