Well here it is Friday 4:20. Just waiting for 5:00. I seemed to be doing a little better today. I had a complete break down yesterday morning before I came to work. I had to take a Xanax. I am getting where I have to take one everyday now. I was sitting here at work this afternoon, busy as can be, and got the sinking feeling that "Oh my God Josh had not called yet to let me know he is home" then I realized "Damn I must be going crazy." It has been almost six months and Josh will not be calling today, tomorrow, or ever. I hate being at home. That is the loniest place I have ever been in. How do I continue on without Josh? What sense does my life make without him? NONE!!!!!! I WISH EVERYONE HERE A GREAT WEEKEND. I LOVE YOU JOSH, MAMA
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I relate to what you are saying I still go through the thinking why hasn\'t John phoned only to have it crash on you that he never will again.When you find the answer to your last two questions could you let me know. Enjoy as much as possilbe your weekend
For right now you may need to rely on some medication to help you and that\'s okay-and you\'re not crazy, you\'re just a Mom who misses her son more than anything in the world like we all miss our guys and gals. I miss calling Chris on his cell phone-that was our connection and I\'m telling you NOTHING made me happier than when he actually answered his phone! Of course, knowing it was Mom calling I figure he often just let the voice mail pick up-but my day was made when I could hear his voice-I know he understands that now and Josh knows how much you love him and he loves you back all the time.