Sorry, I haven't written since the weekend. I have been real busy. Trying to keep my mind functioning. Mother's Day really sucked. I got up that morning and I had a sign from Josh. I was sitting at the computer and was looking out the window and noticed he had written his name and the window sill. He had a special way of writting his name. I got showered and dressed and took my lawn chair and book I am reading and went and sat with Josh for about two hours. I was at such peace when I was there with him. I left him and went by the scene and lost it. John and I rode to Kinston so he could show me where my CF meeting was to be held. Then I spent the rest of the afternoon with family. I went to my first CF meeting last night. I really enjoined. I will be going back. I am falling slack on checking my special friends and I will check on them tonight and let you know who needs extra hugs. I love you Josh, Rhonda